Mean Girls

     You know, I've never actually thought that those popular, narcissistic high school girls in those movies even existed. I've grown up on this tiny island, and I go to a very small high school. I've never had problems with anyone; I've never been in fights with anyone; I've never wanted to cause any harm, or wanted to ruin someone's life. No, nothing of the sort. I've always thought that those girls were only in movies; only actresses. Not anymore.
     Saipan International School is really small. Honestly, really small. So small that you could memorize every person's name in the whole high school if you wanted to. It's possible. This small atmosphere should cause people to know each other, therefore, understand each other better. Unfortunately, there is this lot of girls who I don't particularly take a liking to. They say what they want and do what they want, and it's making them look so bad. People are too afraid to stand up to them because they come off as relentless and inconsiderate, and I'm beginning to believe that is exactly what they are.
     I'm not trying to be mean by saying these things. I'm but speaking from experience. I'm the only person I know who is brave enough to stand up to them. I don't give a fuck what they think about me. They have no morality when it comes to judgement. It's honestly not okay to talk negatively about a person just because of their appearance. It's downright neadrethal behavior. Who makes assumptions of a person, and then talks badly about him or her without even getting to know the person? They do, duh.
     Today is the day that I officially declared myself fed up with them. During volleyball practice after school, one of the drills required some of us to spike the ball while the other half went and fetched the balls on the other side of the court. Well, it only seemed like three people were going after the volleyballs. They stood around chin-wagging. A ball landed near them, and I called out for them to get it. They heard, but ignored me. Yeah, something's messed up with this picture, huh? Our coach told all of us to gather the balls. I went and fetched the few that I could. Apparently, they were mocking me: "There's a ball over there," they said. "Keep it up, get expelled. Good luck with that," they said. I said those words. To me, only children mock for no reason.
     Now, (thanks to the internet and Twitter), they're making it seem like I'm the bad person. I did not instigate anything. I did not act rude or disrespectful around them. I did not give them any reason to do what they did. They see me as a threat, and I know it. I can handle this alone, but I know people who object to these girls, as well. They just don't say anything about it. They act all nonchalantly in front of them, but talk behind their backs. I don't like that. If there's a problem, make it known, that's the only way things will change.
     I'm left alone. To fend for myself. None of my friends respect me or themselves enough to not necessarily fight for me, but fight with me. I don't like thinking this way, but it makes me question my bond with the friends I have. I would do anything--I would change my views, I would make a fool of myself--to defend a friend, but none of them are willing to do the same for me. This is why I'm better off on my own. No one to have hopes on to help me out, no one to fight with me.
     This is where the mean girls have their advantage. They have numbers; they stick together. I don't have that. None of my friends stick up for me, none of them. If any of them are reading this now, I'd like to make that known. If you're not willing to go out of your way to fight with me, don't consider yourself my friend, because that brings you to the same level as the mean girls.